Whoa! What happened?

Okay so life is still rolling along here. I'm the new kangaroo. I have one little person that just has to be with me to save his life. That is unless Daddy is home. That is great. He also is a very demanding and high maintenance kind of kid. Don't know how I did that one other than being the kangaroo mama. So I am going to be royally messed up because the pouch is already getting filled again. Yep it's happened to me. We're pregnant. Now after the shock has faded away. (Actually lasting three full days of panic attacks and hyperventilating.) 3 weeks of complete denial and lesser shock. 11 weeks of hourly morning sickness 24/7. Before getting some SERIOUS meds to help me not have to be hospitalized. We are now 13 weeks along. Still shocked this baby has held on but I'm moving into excited (had to do with your head in the toilet/bag with a 1 year old trying to paint with it as you try to hurry to go pick up the 6 year old at school.)

Brian's a different story. He's been over the moon excited since he found out. Thrilled actually. But then again aren't all men excited when they hit the bulls eye? Brenner's also excited and wants it to be a girl. Asking what I'm making today for the baby and was excited and scared when I told him, "A tail." Then proceeded to see if he had one. The next week I told him, "I'm taking the tail off." "Oh that's good mom. No body really wants a tail. Thanks mom." I do what I can.

So I will have a 7, 1, and none year old at birth. Can you tell my math is off? I really was quite good at it math. There was a deployment in there but that's really not the reason for the gap. Now I'm stunned with what to do with two close in age. I guess I'll find out.

I'm following in the footsteps of some very smart women. (I'm actually not being sarcastic here. They're very intelligent.) So that is what is giving me the faith that I can do this because the proof is in their pudding. So a big shout out to the moms that have babies under a year apart. Or find out before the "baby" turns one. L.G., S.A., E.H., M.C., C.G., M.C.,S.M.,N.E., K.C., S.G., & many more I'm sure I'm forgetting. I left you some anonymity but you'll know who you are. I didn't want to "out" you in case you've been relocated and have gone under the radar.

But I must say that mainly there is one person in particular that inspires me. She would and had climbed many a stirrups in a paper gown to try and be in my shoes. Many a probe, poke, blood draw, chart, and time table. She is what is making me remember it's not about the nausea and fear of two in diapers. It's about the miracle that is happening inside. Thank you J.K.