Tiger Scouts

I think I have by far the cutest Tiger Scout in all the land. We've already done the fund raiser thing and this month we've learned all about farm animals. Watching all these first graders play charades of farm animals is down right hard. They're not quite sure what they're supposed to do. "Make the other boys guess what animal I am w/o making any sounds? Are you sure?" They said. We had owls and snakes but my favorite is that each and every time. (All 5 times) Brenner has been a pig. Now getting down on all fours and walking funny can be a lot of farm animals, but a pig is Brenner's favorite. Personally, I don't know how I would act out a sheep, cow, horse, llama, goat, or dog or anything with four legs that would act differently than stand on all four. But man o man these boys sure do think it's great to make the others not get their animal. Yelling and screaming all the animals they can think of all at once. And each time Brenner stands up as proud as a peacock and says. "Nope, I'm a pig." I think, "Come on guys. He's a pig."

He has passed off all of his requirements for his Bobcat and at the next pack meeting he'll be getting it. I want to say WE but he is really working hard for all of his awards. I'm so happy for him. We're also working with his buddy on Wednesdays to work on our at home patches and they are doing great. Tomorrow we head off to the Zoo for a huge group of Tiger Scouts. All of the Tigers over the entire island are invited. I think it's going to be really hard to find my little tiger in a sea of Tiger Scouts tomorrow. I need to think of something to hang on his hat to spot him. That or ... a line ... or a sticker. I don't really need to. Brenner's a really good kid and won't go far from me.

Our Halloween Joy

Some times we do things because we want to and other times because we've always done them and other times it's 'cuz our kid wants to have his house just as cool as his buddy's house and so ... dum dum dum ... I do the decorating. I know it's not much and it's by far not as cool as his buddy's house but it's something. I think it was fun to put up all the stuff for Halloween but I just don't like buying all the dead things to put in our yard and the blood is just too gross. I'm a Christmas decoration kind of person. But on the inside. I'm just not in the mood to do Halloween this year. So, outside we go with our two bags of cob webs and THE happiest little boy ever.
First we set up Beckett in a safe and shaded place. He liked watching all of us moving around from the comfort of his mobile swimming pool. He liked rolling and sliding all over and that he could reach over and grab at the grass. Now on the the cobwebs. We first put up our glow in the dark green cobweb in the front yard. He wanted the garage but sticky mom needs to go in and out of there and couldn't do it with the stroller through a web. We tugged and pulled and got webs all over the bench in front, the faucet, the windows and around the side of the house. Looking it over. Sizing up each area and then he found the best possible spot for his one and only prize spider. "Mom, this is the best place." I was so proud of him. I didn't want to do any of it. I put it off and put it off and here he was so blissfully happy with his one spider on this simple little cobweb. I'm in awe of this little man. Being happy with what little he has. It makes me want to give him the world but reminds me that he's learning to be happy with himself first and finding joy in the little things in life. And that's the greater joy.

In love

I'm so in love with these two little creatures. Some of the time they'll both stop long enough to play together or sit together. Brenner's wanted to be more of a help to me and wants "real" jobs. So he's now the baby sitter. When I'm cooking dinner and making a bottle for bedtime or loading the car he's in charge of entertaining him. But now that he's getting mobile he's moving all over.

One of the sweetest things I saw was Brenner playing with Beckett in the living room and Beckett fell backwards and hit his head hard. He started crying and Brenner quickly came over and loved on him and told him, "it's okay baby Beckett brother's here. I love you." A couple of days later it happened again and he did the same but this time Beckett reached for his brother to help him and held on to his neck. The next time it happened Brenner started to pick him up. Just holding him on his lap. He's so loving to his brother. I just love that Brenner got to get Beckett's first hug. He was in distress and knew his brother would love him okay again. I hope that through their whole lives they'll still feel this way. I know at certain stages it'll be deeper down than other times, but I know that because they feel this way now they'll always love each other. I always wanted someone for Brenner. Someone so he'd never be alone. Always have that sibling somewhere in this big big world that truly knows him and where he comes from.

So tonight I'm going to rock them one extra time to their baby songs and kiss them a little more and love them a little harder and ignore the laundry one more day. I'm in love with my boys and I'm glad their love is so natural it's "just" a part of them.


P.S. Brenner's song is Baby Mine by Alison Krause and Beckett's is Somewhere Over The Rainbow by IZ. With each of our babies I would sing a special song for each of them. I'm not a good singer in the least but I always wanted them to feel love from me. Besides, they don't know I'm no good at the singing.

Brenner's = We wanted him to feel special from the moment we were blessed with him and know that we wanted him so much. Beckett's = He was such a dream. We thought we would never get him and it would be such a long shot; and yet he's our other miracle. He's also our Hawaiian born baby. I sang these to them in my tummy and it still calms both of them. Brenner loves "His song" still.

Lemme Show ya som'em

I'm a little Beckett and I've got some great things I'm doing these days. First of all I've got these great little things in my mouth. Most of the time I'm hiding them with my tounge but mom always makes me laugh so much. She says they match my eyes. They sparkle sparkle sparkle I'm working at standing up all on my own. I also think that I can walk places. or at least get there all on my own. I just simply lean forward and away I go. I can get all over the bed and now I'm getting really good at getting all over the living room floor to all the things I shouldn't have . I love playing peek-a-boo with towels and blankets and especially my crib. I like to try and find brother best though. He runs around like crazy. I love trying to find him in the house. When we go grocery shopping he jumps and jumps and jumps. I love it. I laugh so hard at him. He also pushes me in my special stroller. It can take big kids for rides on the back too.
I just got a new bouncy thing to help mom clean up the room. I don't quite know what to think of it. Sometimes I like it but I get all twisted up in it. Very confusing some times. Now I saved the best for last. I have my very own pool. I take it right out into the front yard. I invited my friend Julisa over to play too. I wasn't to sure about it. Well, because normally when I get into the bath I have to go to bed right after that . I wasn't ready to go to bed and I was outside doing this. But I liked it. I thought it was great. Mom says it's really fun and we'll do it more when Brohter's at school and it's too hot in the house. Oh and she told me something funny too. She syas that this time of year everywhere else people aren't swimming anymore. That it's getting cold. I don't know what she's talking about. She's so funny.