In love

I'm so in love with these two little creatures. Some of the time they'll both stop long enough to play together or sit together. Brenner's wanted to be more of a help to me and wants "real" jobs. So he's now the baby sitter. When I'm cooking dinner and making a bottle for bedtime or loading the car he's in charge of entertaining him. But now that he's getting mobile he's moving all over.

One of the sweetest things I saw was Brenner playing with Beckett in the living room and Beckett fell backwards and hit his head hard. He started crying and Brenner quickly came over and loved on him and told him, "it's okay baby Beckett brother's here. I love you." A couple of days later it happened again and he did the same but this time Beckett reached for his brother to help him and held on to his neck. The next time it happened Brenner started to pick him up. Just holding him on his lap. He's so loving to his brother. I just love that Brenner got to get Beckett's first hug. He was in distress and knew his brother would love him okay again. I hope that through their whole lives they'll still feel this way. I know at certain stages it'll be deeper down than other times, but I know that because they feel this way now they'll always love each other. I always wanted someone for Brenner. Someone so he'd never be alone. Always have that sibling somewhere in this big big world that truly knows him and where he comes from.

So tonight I'm going to rock them one extra time to their baby songs and kiss them a little more and love them a little harder and ignore the laundry one more day. I'm in love with my boys and I'm glad their love is so natural it's "just" a part of them.


P.S. Brenner's song is Baby Mine by Alison Krause and Beckett's is Somewhere Over The Rainbow by IZ. With each of our babies I would sing a special song for each of them. I'm not a good singer in the least but I always wanted them to feel love from me. Besides, they don't know I'm no good at the singing.

Brenner's = We wanted him to feel special from the moment we were blessed with him and know that we wanted him so much. Beckett's = He was such a dream. We thought we would never get him and it would be such a long shot; and yet he's our other miracle. He's also our Hawaiian born baby. I sang these to them in my tummy and it still calms both of them. Brenner loves "His song" still.